Changing Plans

Dan isn't going with me to Happy Camp, Ca. I was hoping that he would drive the van whilst I drove the motor home.
He's got a new job so he won't be able to leave with me. I'll have to do it alone.
I'm now thinking about driving the van out, first. I'll live in it while I learn to prospect for gold.
Later, I'll come back on a plane and jump in the motor home and drive it out.
I bought more options on silver; I now have $250 invested.
Last week silver was going through the roof; this week, not so much. I think Harvey Organ was wrong about the world running out of silver. But the news out of Europe seems to be driving gold and silver to levels not seen for several months. There is still hope that I'll have a lot of money for my move by April. I would like to leave earlier but that doesn't seem to be happening.
Recently, I've been thinking about delaying the move since it would cost so much. My solution is to simply park the motor home and pile a tent and camping gear into the van and live out of it.
That will be a lot cheaper and I have to get the van out there anyway. If I find a lot of gold I will be able to afford an airline ticket back to here and then I can pick up the motor home.
I still need to find more income; especially since I tend to spend so much buying more silver. I've got to get focused on making the move happen. I simply don't have the money to invest in silver no matter how much of a good idea it is.
Well, I finally made some money (yesterday and today) shoveling snow. In those 2 days I made almost as much as I would have made at the Peace Center for a week.
I am expanding my snow shoveling. I've got 2 new customers.
I'll put off job hunting until next Spring. Maybe my options will come through and I'll have plenty of money for the move. Maybe I'll also sell some of my etchings.
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Internet connections are driving me "nuts".

I've wasted an entire weekend just trying to get good Internet connections.
They changed the password at the Peace Center, the Co-op didn't work and my connection to Magpie was bad. I even went to the Magpie Coffeehouse and had a cookie and coffee and there the connection was bad.
I might have to break down and actually pay for Internet. I might just rent an office at the Peace Center. Then I would have a little room to do things with.
This business of going to coffee shops for Internet access is just too damned expensive. And I have a lot of trouble with their Internet, as well.
I priced the Internet from the cable  company. The thing that discourages me from getting their service is that they have limits on how many gigabytes you can download. I'm afraid I'll always be going over. I could do things like downloading operating systems at coffee houses but that would get away from my idea of limiting my spending at coffee houses.
Watch David Morgan on Youtube, today. He came out for revolution. I agree with him; it's about time. We are getting as bad as the Soviet Union before they were overthrown. A lot hinges on the military. The important thing is how do we get them informed about what is really going on?
Maybe I'll defect when I go to Canada, this Spring. The right conversation with an informed Canadian could put me over the edge.
I think about how many Jews left Europe in the 30's. Over 2 million of them got out while the getting out was good. People forget that there are always those who accurately predict future events.
On another topic, my motor home is still in the shop. I gave the repair guy a list of things I wanted done. I am waiting to hear from him. The Beast, as I now call it, will be ready to roll by the end of March. I'm ready to get out of here and find some gold. Maybe I'll find enough to start a homestead. I don't know if I have enough energy left to really get a homestead off the ground. I also don't know if I'll be able to find any gold or if it will be worth anything if  do.
All I can do is to plug along and try to do the right thing. I hope that I will be divinely led in the next few years as well.
On yet a different topic, my etchings are being shown at Luther College. They really look nice. I got paid $250 for showing them. It comes at a good time. I was getting a little broke; I spent too much for computer parts and silver on Ebay.
Of course, if I had a lot of money I could spend as much as I like on computers and silver. It's just a matter of always being broke that is the problem.
I'll sign off on that note.
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This Changes Everything

Something I saw on YouTube today changes my thinking on bugging out.
I've been thinking that I would prospect for gold for when we go back to the barter system.
It turns out that people may not be accepting gold and silver for 5 years after the breakdown.
That means that what I'll be accumulating won't have much value for about 5 years. I could just as well barter for gold and silver which I'll get very cheaply and accumulate it during the period that most people won't have much use for it.
I need to get into a position where I'll have a lot of what people really need during a currency collapse. I guess that means I need to be raising or harvesting food on a big scale. Homesteading would make more sense than prospecting. Maybe I can combine the two, somehow.
I really don't have much to barter with. Maybe I could get canned goods for installing Linux on laptops. A usable skill might go farther than gold or silver for the short term. Car maintenance, welding, or hair cutting might be more valuable than gold. Trading stocks and options will probably be a useless skill. I don't think there will be a place for people who don't have truly usable skills in the near future.
Maybe I'll get back to Jim and see about buying his acreage, near Harper's Ferry. It would be near the Mississippi and I could start a homestead there. It has electricity and access to a road. The price is a bit high but maybe Jim could write the mortgage. That means he'll sell it straight to me and act like the bank.
One of the disadvantages of buying land right now is that it might go down in value due to the depression. There are people who are predicting real estate to go to 30% of it's value, now. If I wait, I might be able to find a better place at a fraction of the price, now.
Maybe I'll find an acreage near the gold fields in California. I would rather live in a more hospitable climate anyhow. On other topics:

1. My motor home is in the shop and things are getting fixed.
2. I bought the options for silver and silver is going up. I haven't bet against gold, yet; I ran out of money.
3. The news about Ebola is being suppressed. I'm going to bug out as soon as I see an obvious Ebola victim. 

That's all I have for now; I'm sorry I haven't been posting much lately.
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I Might have to get an Actual Job

Since I lost my job at the Peace Center things have not been going well.
First of all, it hasn't snowed. I was counting on making all sorts of money, shoveling snow. It just hasn't happened.
Last year I made tons of money, shoveling, and my job at the Peace Center actually interfered with making more money by shoveling.
This year, except for a week in November, the snow hasn't been there.
I may have to go to Wal-Mart and figure out their computerized job application method. I hate their computers. It's so confusing.
I just don't know what else to do. I haven't been able to get my computer repair business off the ground. I'm probably one of the few experts in Linux in this town but people just don't want to leave Microsoft or MacIntosh.
I tend to actually lose money by fixing up old laptops. They cost too much to replace the batteries and install memory. I think the only reason I bother is to find old laptops good homes.
I wanted to mention how disillusioned I am with what news I find on You Tube.
Harvey Organ is probably wrong about the Chinese using up the world's silver supply by the end of December. There are only 2 days left, counting today. There is no sign of that happening.
I've got some options that are good until the end of March so I'm as ready as I can be. I also have a lot of silver in a safe deposit box.
I'm beginning to think that everything I see on You Tube is a lie. Of course, I know that everything I see on Main Stream Media is a lie as well. The truth is buried under a ton of lies and distortions. I just don't know what to believe anymore.
My idea of bugging out for the currency collapse or the Ebola pandemic may have been created by believing the garbage put out on You Tube.
I still like the idea of living as cheaply as possible in an RV. It gives me a lot of options. I can park on mining claims where I have the right to mine on. I can also simply live on the street; I can park it anywhere and just live there. I can also get my own land and park it there.
I like having options open and if they take away Social Security I'll have a roof over my head, no matter what.
I was thinking about moving my motor home to LaCrosse and living there until it's time to go to California. I'll price RV parks. Maybe it would be cheaper than living here and I could go to church more often. It's beginning to look like the snow will never appear.
Well, I've got to go to Cresco and see if the RV people over there will work on my motor home. I should never have taken it out of there anyway.
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Are my planning and thoughts too "fear based".

I don't know. I feel that I want to be prepared for what happens in the future and I don't see much good going on. 

I feel that the currency will collapse any time, now. I was watching something on YouTube that predicted the collapse this coming September or October. 

I hope it holds together that long. I should be in the gold fields of Northern California by then. I'll be living cheaply and stacking gold. I should be as ready as I can be for that contingency by then.

Of course, I'm basing my plans on the collapse of the dollar. Other people might feel that I'm being a "Chicken Little", but I just feel that I'm doing the sensible thing when you consider the facts. I'm not ignoring reality like so many of my friends. 

That reminds me, what about Ebola? 

I think the "controlled press" is being shut down in reporting about it. Alex Jones said that he's been hearing about people who get checked into hospitals with Ebola symptoms and they are being made to disappear. Their records are purged and it's just like they never existed. 

This messes me up with my plans to bug out when the toll of Ebola patients in the U.S.A. hits 50,000. My new criteria is to bug out as soon as I see an obvious Ebola victim. They have blood blisters that can be seen across the street. I figure that if I see one it's time to leave. 

More bad news about the motor home. It turns out that the RV repair guy doesn't want to mess with the propane because it may be dangerous. It also may not meet the newer specs. I might have to spend hundreds of dollars getting the furnace and water heater fixed up. Maybe I'll take it to the other RV repair place that is about 20 miles away. They seem a lot more ready to work on the old "piece of shit". 

I'm really disappointed in the lack of snowfall this year. I was hoping to make a ton of money shoveling snow. It's just isn't happening. I miss the income from my old job at the Peace Center. Without the snow I don't have any way to make it up. Maybe I'll have to finance my gold prospecting expedition with "Crowd Funding" or something. There is nobody I could borrow from since I've always lost money on all of my get rich quick schemes. 

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G4T is back

George for Title or G4T is back on YouTube. I used to watch him a lot. I think the trolls got his site taken down for being too negative or fraudulent. He did have a lot of drama in his content which was questionable.
I guess that is something that can happen to someone who is trying to get more viewers. They pump things up a bit.
I do like his content. He interviewed a homeless guy in one vlog; and he talked about the collapsing Ruble and the oil prices going down in other vlogs.
He has some vlogs where he addresses the outrageous price of living in California; and he talks about alternative lifestyles.
I have always enjoyed his vlogs. It's good to see him back.
I've been watching the markets, lately. I've come to the conclusion that everything is manipulated. It's really not to sensible to trade anything because someone (buying or selling billions of dollars worth of derivatives) can rig the markets any way that pleases them.
The Russian Ruble is an example of this. Russia has a trade surplus; they have practically no debt; they are exporting. So why is the Ruble going down?
 To me it's obvious that someone is manipulating the markets. I don't know how to trade it. I tried to buy the Ruble 2 months ago. It went down from there. It's like "catching a falling knife". If you aren't on the inside you'll lose money. Watch the video by Dr. Paul Craig Roberts on the Greg Hunter channel of YouTube for a more authoritative analysis of the Russian crisis.
I don't feel that logic works any more. You can't figure out how the markets are manipulated. Your last name isn't Rockefeller or anything like that. There is no sense in trying to make money on any market.
That leaves getting off the grid and living as cheaply as possible.
I tried working for a living but that is a delusion as well. You'll never get enough money to buy a nice house, get married, and raise kids. It's just out of the reach of practically everybody. The fifties came and went. We all have to deal with poverty and hopelessness, now.
I even have the feeling that gold and silver will go down in value. The markets are that manipulated. Nothing has any real value. It's all set by a few people on Wall Street.
It's time to stock up on food, guns and gold. I also think it makes sense to get an RV for living in. That way you should always have a roof over your head.
I'm going to concentrate on getting my motor home ready for the trip to California and forget about everything else.
I hope that I'll be able to live on mining claims for long periods of time. I still would like to find gold while I'm living cheap. I don't know what I'll do when my body starts giving out. Maybe I'll move to Slab City like the "Nomadic Fanatic" on YouTube. It looks pretty good but I'm afraid it might get quite crowded, soon.
That's all that I have for now.
I have to run by the Post Office and see about getting a pass port. I might have to flee to Canada.
Later.

I'm Disappointed with Myself

Here I am,; thinking about trading options on precious metals.
I should know better; I always end up losing. I've tried similar things a dozen or more time and I always end up poorer than when I started.
Maybe there is something self-destructive about me. I had a lousy childhood. I was raised in a violent and drunken home. My father was an alcoholic and we were very poor, as well.
I'm always trying to prove my worth by getting ahead financially. It's just a response to my early childhood.
When I do start winning I find a way to lose it all. I think that is because of my low self-image. I simply don't feel that I deserve wealth, and an easy life.
One thing that I notice about myself is that I'm influenced by the last You Tube video that I've watched.
Yesterday, I was watching Harry Dent tell everyone why the metals will collapse in the near future.
Today, I watched someone say that the CME is getting ready for a major move to the upside in gold and silver.
I think the preponderance of opinion is for a move down and later a major move up.
Unfortunately that is what the majority of people think. Since most people are already betting that way, there may not be much money to be made. It's kind of like a horse race where the odds are set by the betting before the race. Even if you are right there isn't much money to be made by betting the same as everyone else is betting.
Long shots make a lot more money but they are unlikely to come through.
Maybe I'll continue with my original plan since that includes a short-term negative bet on gold; along with a short-term positive bet on silver.
The gold bet seems more likely to win; but the silver bet would really make a lot of money if Harvey Organ turns out to be right and we run out of silver in the next few months.
Of course the most likely circumstance is that neither gold or silver will move much and I'll be out $500. Option traders are always hoping for a big move to justify the risks involved in trading.
I should probably forget all about metals. I've already got a sizable stash of silver and a little gold as well. I should be grateful that I've put aside more metals for the financial collapse. In that regard, I'm probably ahead of 90% of the people in Decorah. I should be setting aside food and getting my motor home ready for the move to California. That might come earlier than I thought.
We haven't had any news about the Ebola outbreak, lately. If I start reading things about that, closer to home, I might have to bug out sooner that I expected.
At least the motor home is closer to being ready for bugging out. I had the vent worked on, today. The next thing is getting the refrigerator running. I'll see about getting gas in it, tomorrow.
I'll see if the rest of it works, tomorrow as well.
Later